Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Life after our BFP

Time feels like it's slowing down, even though my job is crazy. I can't wait to see Baby B again! Monday is our next ultrasound, at 6 weeks. We may or may not be able to see a heartbeat then. I think seeing that will help ease my worry. I am feeling cramps randomly throughout the day and I always think the worst. Stupid IF. I don't think I will ever be able to completely stop worrying.

Nick created a G.mail account for baby. It's essentially a digital baby book. Pretty cool. Grandma and Grandpa have already sent emails. I was very emotional reading what they wrote. This baby will be loved beyond measure. My Dad has had a tough time lately and it's been hard to know how to help him. We have had some rough patches in our relationship. At Thanksgiving, I could tell that he was excited about this baby. I sent him the first ultrasound photo and shortly after he sent me a text that he loves me and is so happy. It warmed my heart to know it is giving him something to be excited about.

I bought several onesies - a long time ago - that I was originally going to use to announce and then that idea flew out the door when I saw those two lines for the first time, ha! However, we do get to surprise my Grandma, aunt and two cousins. There is a Christmas block party being hosted at their ranch in a few weeks, and Nick and I are going. We are bringing the "I love my Great Grandma" onesie and will hand it to her, with cameras ready. We want to get the reaction caught on film :) It will be her first great grandchild and will hopefully bring joy to the family following my Grandpa's sudden passing a year and a half ago. It makes me very sad that this baby won't ever meet him. I will make sure they know him. He was an amazing man.

When I picked up my new prenatals, I just had to browse the baby section. I found a cute gender neutral pack of onesies and I had to buy it. They are for our baby. I can't believe I can say that. After all the struggle, tears, worries, and huge doubts, we finally have our baby. I can't believe a little human is growing inside of me right now!!! Ahhhhh! I have never felt so much joy as I do right now. We still have lots of friends to tell and extended family too, so I have to contain my excitement.

Sending good thoughts to those cycling or in the two week wait. I am always thinking of you.



  1. That is so exciting! I definitely know that feeling! After waiting SO long- it feels so odd to be in the baby section and feel like you are actually able to shop for YOUR little one! I am only 13 weeks and already got the crib- haha! Couldn't help myself :) Congrats- so exciting!

  2. I'm glad you're still able to feel excited in spite of those nagging IF fears :) I haven't bought anything yet, but I'm slowly warming up to the idea! I can't wait for your Monday update!

  3. <3 everything about this post! Except the worrying. Boo to worrying, but I totes understand. Surprising your grandma is going to be awesome!

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  5. I'm so excited for you hon. I don't know it will ease your mind at all, but I had cramps on and off for the longest time. I always thought something was wrong but here I am at 25 weeks! Unfortunately IF puts a really crappy spin on things and it's so hard not to worry. But it'll help to see more on the ultrasound so that's going to be such a cool day. I'm so happy for you!