Thursday, October 13, 2011

I am so sad

I haven't felt this down in a long time. I was reading a few birth stories on The Bump boards and unexpectedly I felt so sad. I thought about what it would be like to have a baby. I pictured Mr. B by my side and my Mom snapping a thousand photos of the new baby. And I just started crying in my office. It's so frustrating to want something so badly and every attempt fails. I feel like life is slapping me in the face every time. 

This is so fucking hard.

5 comments:

  1. The Bump always makes me cry too. I don't know why we torture ourselves like this. Too bad you are on the opposite coast as I am, because I totally would say let's go get a drink!

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  2. Infertility is so unfair :( Huge ((hugs))

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  3. It's bad enough we are dealing with it in our personal lives, but it's awful when the sadness comes through at work or in public. Infertility follows us everywhere. M is so right...why do we give in and look at Bump or the millions of forums out there? It never ends well, but we all do it.

    Sending you a big hug!!! I hope your day gets better! Surround yourself with people/things that make you laugh. Take care :)

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  4. ((hugs)) That's all I have to offer. I'm so sorry :(

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