Wednesday, September 25, 2013

On second thought...

I told myself and all of you that I wanted to keep Number Two's journey to ourselves. But I guess I was lying to myself. As soon as I saw that stark white negative test staring back at me while I willed a line to appear, I realized I need this place to share.

We want Number Two just as much as we wanted our first baby. Having one child doesn't diminish the desire for more or the pain of Infertility. I knew it was possible that this wouldn't work, but I must have convinced myself it would and there would be nothing to worry about because it worked before. I even said that I felt confident we could have another baby with help, and now I don't feel that way. Mostly because we had been trying on our own for a while and no pregnancy, so going back to Dr. A gave me some hope. And now I've lost that little bit of hope I had. Everything went right, but it just didn't happen.

I'm picking my sorry ass self off the ground and carrying on, because that is all there is to do. I don't know when we will cycle again because we are going on vacation in October.

xo, M


  1. ::big hug:: I was hoping that the second time around would be a piece of cake for you guys. I'm really sorry to hear that this cycle didn't work out. :( Still rooting for you as always. <3

  2. :( i'm sorry. I hate that the 2nd time around is just as hard as the first :(

  3. I'm so sorry, gosh we are going through the same thing...we just had a failed IUI today! thoughts to you guys!

  4. I feel like I haven't seen your blog in FOREVER! I'm the worst friend and am just getting back into this...maybe because I am trying for number two as well and am scared.:( I am so sorry for the bfn but know that we are all praying for you! It's JUST as hard as number one! FOr that reason I am making my blog private but still posting. It's so hard to put yourself out there again but somehow we can all get through this again together! Sending lots of love your way! HUGS!!!

  5. Hugs. I'm so sorry to hear this cycle didn't work. I know it sucks, plain and simple it friggin' sucks. Hoping and praying your next cycle ends with a BFP. Praying for you guys.