Life after our BFP

Time feels like it's slowing down, even though my job is crazy. I can't wait to see Baby B again! Monday is our next ultrasound, at 6 weeks. We may or may not be able to see a heartbeat then. I think seeing that will help ease my worry. I am feeling cramps randomly throughout the day and I always think the worst. Stupid IF. I don't think I will ever be able to completely stop worrying.

Nick created a G.mail account for baby. It's essentially a digital baby book. Pretty cool. Grandma and Grandpa have already sent emails. I was very emotional reading what they wrote. This baby will be loved beyond measure. My Dad has had a tough time lately and it's been hard to know how to help him. We have had some rough patches in our relationship. At Thanksgiving, I could tell that he was excited about this baby. I sent him the first ultrasound photo and shortly after he sent me a text that he loves me and is so happy. It warmed my heart to know it is giving him something to be excited about.

I bought several onesies - a long time ago - that I was originally going to use to announce and then that idea flew out the door when I saw those two lines for the first time, ha! However, we do get to surprise my Grandma, aunt and two cousins. There is a Christmas block party being hosted at their ranch in a few weeks, and Nick and I are going. We are bringing the "I love my Great Grandma" onesie and will hand it to her, with cameras ready. We want to get the reaction caught on film :) It will be her first great grandchild and will hopefully bring joy to the family following my Grandpa's sudden passing a year and a half ago. It makes me very sad that this baby won't ever meet him. I will make sure they know him. He was an amazing man.

When I picked up my new prenatals, I just had to browse the baby section. I found a cute gender neutral pack of onesies and I had to buy it. They are for our baby. I can't believe I can say that. After all the struggle, tears, worries, and huge doubts, we finally have our baby. I can't believe a little human is growing inside of me right now!!! Ahhhhh! I have never felt so much joy as I do right now. We still have lots of friends to tell and extended family too, so I have to contain my excitement.

Sending good thoughts to those cycling or in the two week wait. I am always thinking of you.

xoxo,
Megan

5 weeks

Our first glimpse at baby. Apparently we look like a black dot at 5 weeks :)

How far along: 5 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: None
How big is Baby: Baby is the size of a sesame seed.

Sleep: I used to sleep a solid 8 hours every night. Not so much now. I wake up 3 to 4 times feeling uncomfortable.

Movement: Not yet.

Food cravings: All I want is red meat.

Gender: We have a while before we will know.

Symptoms: Very sore boobs. Fatigue. Frequent bathroom trips. I went on a little hike the other day and almost peed my pants.

Best moment this week: Sharing the news with our immediate families and each of our best friends :)

xoxo,
Megan

Music Friday {a day late} - Florence and The Machine

My bestest friend told me that she thought of me when she heard this song.
This is for you Brooke <3

All This and Heaven Too by Florence and The Machine

xoxo,

Megan

Beta #3

Today's level was 822. My RE wants one more beta on Sunday. It seems like most other office's just do two or three, so of course I worry when they want me to do four. The nurse said they will schedule the first ultrasound for Monday. Nick and I are very excited for that!

xoxo,
Megan

So much to be thankful for.

Today I am thankful for my husband, both of our families, our amazing friends, our house, the delicious food we are going to eat today, all of my e-friends and our little poppy seed, baby B. My thoughts are with everyone that is still struggling. I never stop rooting for you.

xoxo,
Megan

Beta #2

Beta #2 was 301. They just want to see it double, so this is great news. Beta #3 will be Friday, and the nurse said they usually do the first ultrasound a week from my first beta. This is still so surreal.

I had my favorite nurse again today. She is the absolute best at drawing blood. She gave me a packet with commonly asked questions about the first trimester. I will stay with my RE until 12 weeks, and will have weekly ultrasounds and blood work. I had no idea I would be in that often! They said we can bring a DVD+RW to record the ultrasounds too. How cool.

I also had a very pleasant surprise when I was checking out. I pulled out my Visa to pay for my blood work and she said nope, your insurance pays now. Sweet!!! Kind of annoying that they aren't there when we need help, but whatever. We have racked up almost $7,000 in costs so I was thrilled to hear that, and so was Nick when I told him :)

Thank you all for the comments. They make me smile. I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving.

xoxo,
Megan

Beta #1

I love my RE office. I had my blood drawn at 7:30am and the nurse called me at 11am with the results. She was so sweet to not keep me waiting all day. I think I am going to take them all some candy and a thank you card.

hCG was 125 and progesterone was 37. Ohmygosh, I am really pregnant. This is really happening.

My Mom gave this to me today. Love.

xoxo,
Megan